Halfway Point

So we've reached the halfway point of the year. To quote the comic book man, "worst half year ever." Fuck me. I've gone from almost engaged with child, to not having a girlfriend and no longer with child. Now I've got people talking shit about my game? That's funny. A little while ago I was told I used to be feared, but what have I won lately? Yeah, I haven't played much all year. That's because I didn't have to. But ever so slowly I'm coming back.

I heard this song by TI today, called No Matter What. I like that song. It reminds me a lot of my current situation.

neva have ya seen in ya lifetime
a more devine southern rapper wit a swag like mine
facin all kind of time
but smile like im fine
brag with such passion and shine without trying
believe me pain's a small thing to a giant
i was born without a dime
out tha gutta i climbed
spoke my mind
and didnt stutter one time
ali say even the greatest gotta suffer some time
so i huff and puff rhymes
lyrics so sick wit it
set the standard in atlanta
how to get get get it
so you up imcoming rappers wanna dis just kill it
imma officially the realest
point blank period
whether i still live in the hood or juss visit
whateva you can do in the hood i done did it
thats why the dope boys and the misfits feel it
this still his city as long as tip living.

(Chorus)
i aint dead (naw)
i aint done (naw)
i aint scared (of what!)
i aint run ( from who!)
but still i stand (yeah)
no matterr what people here i am... (Yeah)
no matter what remember
I aint break (neva)
I aint fold (neva)
They hate me mo’ ( so!)
Yeah I know… (haha)
Here I go (yeah)
No matter what shawty here I go (hah)
No matter what shawty

you let the blog sites and the magazines tell it
im sho to be in jail till 2027
rather see me in a cell
in stead of this new McLaren
god'll take you through hell just to get you to heaven
so even know its heavy the load i will carry
grin and still bear it
win and still share it
apologies to the fans i hope you can understand it
life can change ya directions
even when you aint planned it
all you can do is handle it
the worst thing you could do is panic
use it to your advantage
avoid insanity manage to conquer
every obstacle
make impossible possible
even when winnings illogical
losing's still far from optional
yeah they wanna see you shot up in the hospital
but one life throw punches, block ya counter like a boxer do
been locked inside mi casa too long
I did a song to make it known that the king lives on

(Chrous)

Even in sollitude
theres still no hotter dude
I show you how to do
What you do
You aint got a clue
All you do is follow dudes
Sound like a lot of dudes
I weather whateva storm
Make it out without a bruise
I understand why
Now wit my hands tied
Dey take shots cause if im out there it’s a land slide
But revenge is best served as a cold dish
and suckas will get served you better know this
guess it was understood for me it was over with
but I don’t quit if ya aint notice yet
they couldn’t wait to say good night shawty
so they can try to rhyme act and look like shawty
go get a beat from Toomp? and make a hook like shawty
before ya know it im back
what it look like shawty
I lost my partna and my daughter in the same year
Somehow I rise above my problems and remain here
Yeah and I hope the picture painted clear
If ya heart filled with faith then ya cant fear
Wonder how I face years and im still chillen
Easy,let go and let god deal wit it